Fail day.

People say, that before you die, the whole of your life flashes before your eyes. So why when I saw you today, did everything we've been through just automatically start playing through in my head. All these memories. Everything you've ever said. Just started going round and round inside my mind. I was coping before I saw you. I'd managed to make it through till lunch without thinking about everything all that much. Even at break when you didn't turn up, I just thought you we're avoiding me. I expected it. And when I avioded you at lunch today, everyone there knew why. I know I'll have to face you propperly at some point, I can't keep avoiding you when your such a big part of my life. It's just not possible. But just seeing you, walk past. I can't put it into words. It just brought everything back. It was like someone had slapped me round the face and taken all my oxygen away, and all that's left was you. Anyway I need to write my media blog so it would seem. But hey, the problems will still be there later so hmmeh (:
Peace.