It's a High School Musical day..

I have no idea how I feel right now. I guess it's such a mixture of things, I have no idea where I stand right now with anything at all in my life.
I feel like my best friend is trying to push me out of his life to make his girlfriend happy. It annoys me how he allows her to controll him. He's convinced that he's so completely in love with her, but I've known them both for a very long time, and I can just seem them destroying eachother. They haven't even been together a month and you can see that they don't trust eachother. He won't even tell her when he's with me. I'm just his best friend. Friend being the operative word. Honestly, I love him to pieces, but if anything in that way almost happened, I think I'd throw up. I can't express it, but just no. But, even though I'm loosing my best friend because of her, I'll still have to be there whenever he needs to complain, even though I wont be bothered about it anymore. As far as I'm conserned, he's changed. Give it time. You'll see.
Parents. Fucking hell, who invented them? I hate the way that they're so sencible. And they're going on holiday to Scotland next year. Funny how they don't have a problem with leaving me home alone anymore, it's not as if my sister can look after me because she's finally found a job. I don't know what they're expecting me to do. And my mum just made me take my stretcher out! FML, that's fucked me off. They're so restraining, they won't let me be who I want to be, they treat me as if I'm still 6 years old. They don't trust me. Just GRRR! They won't let me express my self at all, I'm 16 for christ sake. Just they wait till I'm at uni. GRRRRRRRR. I'll just have to find another way.
Wow, saturday. You, you made me happy for just that little while. You made me forget about everything for a time, and all i could focus on was you. I'm not entirely sure what happened. But I'm sure you must have felt something? Even the tiniest thing, when me and you were hugging in the porch. Maybe it was just me who felt like it was forever. -OW MY EAR HURTS- but, knwoing me I fucked it up the next morning, by talking about it to Georgie and I'm pretty sure. I know, that you'll just see me as some stupid kid who takes a drunken hug too seriously. But part of me thinks you only backed off because your sister told you to. I don't even know why Holly told you to do that.. I don't know if it was because she doesnt trust me, or you. I really don't understand. She knows I had a crush on you before her party, I thought you were fit before I even know you and her were related. She used to try and encourage us. Like, she's make me walk over to hers just to see you, I thought she was alright with it? She knows everything that's been happening recently with guys, so I thought she would have seen that as a good thing? I DONT GET IT! Sigh, sigh, sigh. Maybe I should talk to you first, see how that goes, then talk to her?
Maybe I'm over reacting? AHHHH SHUT UP HEAD. I dont want to care about anything anymore ;( fucking hell.
We'll see. Things will change. They have to.